i m tired ...

To,
whomsoever it may concern..

that was all crap...
thats the most stupidly contradictory thing i have ever written in life..
i have been plagued by fatigue, stress and the entire family (yes dono side ke relatives like frustration, chid chid....) for the past month..how can i feel wonderful ??
confused as ever..

u know what, in fact i m feeling helpless..
i have been making fuss about lot of things lately..
and when i realised this..i thought its better to let things as they are..
cos i cant control what others think and do..ab koi devtaa to nahi main..ya fir this aint any game where im god's favorite and bestowed with infinite power to control others and rule them !!!

so in short and in order to stop making fuss/issues about things, i have started minding my own business..
now some people think thats being selfish.. :(
sadly it is..but it saves tons of eneriges of a malnourished and working (thats sone pe suhaga in devil's own tongue!) IT professional who is going through a tough phase.. (read between the lines, for a workaholic soul being on bench is tough! for someone who loves each and every aspect of mother nation, the prospect of leaving it behind is tough!)

'my mind' is already playing all sorts of loser games on 'my mind'.. :(
nowadays simple things like opening a word doc, seem like solving da vinci's riddle..
i feel aged and weared out..
though one part of me is dying to explore the newfound horizon, the other still wants to read many untouched/unfinished chapters..
and worst is they aren't even fighting/pulling/pushing each other..so it makes all this even more difficult..
to make it simple I AM TIRED !!

regards,
nightflier

P.S. this is a much needed outburst :)
P.P.S. every word i wrote yday is true to my knowledge :)