giving up..

just gave up on a matlab assignment..
not that I cant program..its just that I cant program myself to do stuff I don't understand :S
it's a big issue now, cos the deadline for the project is thursday..
I have been working on it since friday, but whether you call it my slow brains (probability is higher) or not, I'm struggling badly..

and things do tend to get worse, if rest of the class is enjoying the weekend and you are the only loser ass sitting in the apartment, not enjoying chicago weather (last few days of summer you see) and the realization about 'you-are-a-jerk' dawns upon you at 11.30 in the night on a sunday !!!
we (me and my roomie who share the same class) have contacted/mailed the prof since friday, but seems lucky chap, is having a great time on the weekend..the only responses have been, in greek !! and my position and situation does not give me time to learn all that you see !!! and I dont want to sound like a geeky jerk, but we have been the only 2 people, pestering him..rest of the class is too clever to even consider him for help, that too on a weekend, me thinks !!

so when nothing else works in life, and you start feeling frustrated and worked up and tensed and worthless (:D)..give up people !!

from failed relationships to unsolved assignment problems, this technique works..hoping with the best of hopes that this works :D

live and let live,
nightflier !

P.S. i really want to write on deep, meaningful issues, guess i have already given up on that front !! :)