why blog ?
It is my happy place. Despite the rants and some outbursts (they are here to remind me to not get affected next time btw ;)) I try to keep it happy.
By not posting some utterly negative stuff which I face in real life. Not because posting it will make it any less real. Sometimes its better to not spread it around. Negativity is easier to catch on. Optimism takes time. And I would never ruin the eternal optimist in me because of few (!!) off days. Ironically, on really sad, way off days, the posts remind me of the person I could be, rather than the person I should be. Things, always work the other way round :)
By preserving myself I am just proving to myself I am not THAT self-destructive. Better to have a reminder of any night-mare as a stronger, better self.
Also, who doesn't have the narcissistic trait ? This is the best form of self indulgence that I know :P
And I have been a serious nerd all life. This is a proof of that. How ? Only I know ;)
Anywho, all said and done, if and when I do write a book, all this will be immensely helpful as the milestones of the wondrous journey that started 26 years ago.
A really really vain, filmy part of me, wants my kids to know me (the happy part of me at least ?) through the blog. (ala rani mukerji in KKHH ..chorus aaaa-ing in background :D)
Oh and I have really nice people around me, so blogging about them and what I learn from them and the knowledge sharing becomes a compulsive outcome.
~nightflier
P.S. Since I am self-aware (sometimes its annoying!) and observe myself, I know this has not been the happiest of places. But I have clung on to my patronus(es) and hope to keep the essence alive :)
By not posting some utterly negative stuff which I face in real life. Not because posting it will make it any less real. Sometimes its better to not spread it around. Negativity is easier to catch on. Optimism takes time. And I would never ruin the eternal optimist in me because of few (!!) off days. Ironically, on really sad, way off days, the posts remind me of the person I could be, rather than the person I should be. Things, always work the other way round :)
By preserving myself I am just proving to myself I am not THAT self-destructive. Better to have a reminder of any night-mare as a stronger, better self.
Also, who doesn't have the narcissistic trait ? This is the best form of self indulgence that I know :P
And I have been a serious nerd all life. This is a proof of that. How ? Only I know ;)
Anywho, all said and done, if and when I do write a book, all this will be immensely helpful as the milestones of the wondrous journey that started 26 years ago.
A really really vain, filmy part of me, wants my kids to know me (the happy part of me at least ?) through the blog. (ala rani mukerji in KKHH ..chorus aaaa-ing in background :D)
Oh and I have really nice people around me, so blogging about them and what I learn from them and the knowledge sharing becomes a compulsive outcome.
~nightflier
P.S. Since I am self-aware (sometimes its annoying!) and observe myself, I know this has not been the happiest of places. But I have clung on to my patronus(es) and hope to keep the essence alive :)