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* Today at a non-work session, I was 'the person' who talked about work with another colleague. I know.
I went on to person B like this - You know X and Y work, but X and Z is what we should be looking at. For that we need to get M and N to work, together.
Please stop rolling your eyes. In the next 10 minutes I judged myself so much, that it did not lessen the judgement I feel about other people who do similar things in similar situations. Like talking about your work at family functions. Guilty as charged and all that. I am going to stick to not talking at all at such sessions, from now on.


*Sometimes I really wonder how flaw-full I am. Also how stubborn I am. And sometimes not mature. Plus given the fact that as I am growing up, I just find lesser and lesser energy to sort out some stuff. I know it isnt laziness. It's just this overwhelming (sometimes) feeling of catching up with so many things going on in life, that I feel tired. ALREADY. 
And hence I want to post letters here. To a lot of people. About a lot of things.
I now know why people talk of detoxing. Aint no judging such people from now on.
P.S. Or it may be just that I don't realize but new work and all is an added pressure, in the sense, there is so much to learn!


*I was also wondering if an office can anytime be the 'as much comfortable as' place everyone wants. As in can there be consensus for the AC temperature, or the chairs or the work-desks. Some things you got to personalize and some you got to accept as part of the infrastructure. Else cribbing is always an option. Please crib away. I will use my earmuffs.


*Talking of cutting off and detoxing, I am 7 days down in this month, and I have had ZERO cups of coffee so far. I really want to sometimes, but water is working as a good alternative. Till now.


* I read 'The Help' by Kathryn Stockett last week, after watching the movie. Well, the character of Aibileen was intriguing hence. I have to agree that the book's characters are better and stronger and have a good premise for being involved in rebellious stuff. But Viola Davis! Whoa! Given the fact how stories need to be distorted to fit in a movie structure, she is just awesome!


*I was just chatting with KT, and we were talking about how people in love do things for each other, which is sweet and natural and all. But my point was if your expectations are not met (in terms of response from the object of your attentions) then despite the hurt (betrayal is too dramatic a term na?) we fail to realize (at least sometimes) that the love doesnt go anywhere, at the end of the day. According to me that realization is kind of liberating. In the sense makes space for mistakes and correcting them and thus more drama :D
KT thinks we mask that love-that-did-not-leave by other feelings. (dont know if I got what she said :-/)


~nightflier

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