I am generally the girl who asks her aai (mother) to pray for her.
Well, it basically comes out of she being the nicer one, her prayers will get answered for sure, even if not sooner. So any big thing around the block, even something as lame as, going to collect the results of an exam, I normally ask aai to pray for me. Dad generally thinks I am being absurd. 1st because he thinks (always!) I have worked so hard. And he being the principled person that he is, thinks how can prayers help, if you haven’t done your job ?
I ask aai anyway. Why take the chances?
One day, around 4-5 years back, I decided to grow up and stopped asking aai. How much could she account for my mistakes or doings, right? Felt very profound.
Even though it is liberating to be/feel responsible for oneself and build one’s virtues, I miss the paranoid girl, who would ask her mother to pray for really stupid stuff. And would normally rejoice at the results.
I wonder if she knows this or thinks about it.
I know I need to believe in myself more.
My own prayers more.
But it is always comforting to know that if things go wrong, aai can take care. No ?
Did I say I grew up?
~nightflier
Well, it basically comes out of she being the nicer one, her prayers will get answered for sure, even if not sooner. So any big thing around the block, even something as lame as, going to collect the results of an exam, I normally ask aai to pray for me. Dad generally thinks I am being absurd. 1st because he thinks (always!) I have worked so hard. And he being the principled person that he is, thinks how can prayers help, if you haven’t done your job ?
I ask aai anyway. Why take the chances?
One day, around 4-5 years back, I decided to grow up and stopped asking aai. How much could she account for my mistakes or doings, right? Felt very profound.
Even though it is liberating to be/feel responsible for oneself and build one’s virtues, I miss the paranoid girl, who would ask her mother to pray for really stupid stuff. And would normally rejoice at the results.
I wonder if she knows this or thinks about it.
I know I need to believe in myself more.
My own prayers more.
But it is always comforting to know that if things go wrong, aai can take care. No ?
Did I say I grew up?
~nightflier
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