new first ?

A first is a first. After migrating to old new territory I was just happy being happy. You know how small kids obsess over a new shiny clean slate ? No ? That’s what I was doing. I would go to the page look at it longingly and smile and close the tab. I even tried writing about ‘Moonrise Kingdom‘ ‘a film so fragile that merely describing it may ruin it‘. And after 2 weeks in drafts decided against it. 

So this is what it has come to. Yesterday I missed going out for a run, thinking I felt like writing. I did but the words were not coming. Today I deliberately did not go for the run because a girl needs to work. So I started writing. You see how things flow for me? No? It’s ok yaar.

Life is all about creating one (I guess) after you have been given one. Too cryptic may be.
So last week visiting home, we compelled aai to get rid of her age old relic ‘the iron almirah’, known as the ‘godrej almari’ in most Indian households. Well it was just an eye sore with the shiny wardrobe in the same space. The idea was to move it out, use it for the sundry winter items. ‘Push’ ‘Pull’ and we moved it out all right. But the balcony was not just ready to let it stay there. So decision was taken that it be donated to the building gym facilities. Later it was decided to move it to another flat where a teacher is planning to take classes. But after talking to the maid who showed interest in the iron giant, it was decided to give it to her.

In all this we totally ignored aai’s feelings. Well it was her first ‘private space’ in a joint family post marriage. She tells it was made after giving deliberate measurements, making sure the then house’s geography wouldn’t be disturbed. From mere clothes to us growing up, the almari spans decades in our lives. She is attached to it the way I am attached to my blog. I miss my old blog. I miss my old posts. Of course I can read them anytime.

And this is why I am going to ask aai to keep it. (well if the maid does not insist).
This is how one accepts being like one’s mother.
Overtly sentimental and attached.
Of course we can detach ourselves. But reason we must.

8 responses to “new first ?”

  1. mypunchingbag Avatar

    I do feel that to be attached to a material thing, it is not necessary to keep it. The fact that we have memories of that thing, and think about it fondly, suggests attachment, no? I realised this when I changed homes for the first time. I dont think being in a different home reduced my attachment for my first home.
    There are so many trinkets and souvenirs I hold on to, but sometimes I wonder, is it even necessary?
    PS: yay on your first post! I was waiting for it πŸ™‚

  2. DontShareEverything Avatar

    we had a bed like that forever. Just the liberation of getting to new things excites me. Sometimes I just get over old things, even if on some days I think about them. I'm beginning to like the new too.

  3. Addu Avatar

    Truely befitting to be the first post on a shiny clean slate!!! talking about attachments i would be more interested in knowing if that mirror on the scooty ever got replaced or no??!!! πŸ™‚

  4. nightflier Avatar

    yes I agree. I even did a post about being able to time travel this way on my old blog πŸ™‚
    But sometimes material attachment just validates an era of your life. So in this case I just feel we should keep the cupboard. Even if its not necessary.

    thanks for the cheer btw! πŸ™‚

  5. nightflier Avatar

    oh talking about liberation, its a major milestone when I periodically clean home to get rid of accumulated material wealth (waste)!
    I like new olds too! just that the analytical mind cannot be helped! :-/

  6. nightflier Avatar

    thanks! πŸ™‚
    and will you stop obsessing over that mirror!!!!
    It never got fixed and from what I hear that scooty runs on West Bengal roads nowadays! πŸ™‚

  7. Ketaki... Avatar

    Having moved so much over the last few years, I have lost all the old material things I had. Infact I am trying to think of one and nothing comes to my mind.. Man do I feel leftout.. πŸ™

  8. nightflier Avatar

    oh talking about moving on, I have left behind so much material wealth, its like life teaching me an invaluable lesson in the 'rejection' criteria. πŸ™‚

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