I am not well with words during fights. Have never been in real physical fights. Oh well. I should stop taking things too literally.
Anywho, since I am a sagittarius and aai normally warns me about that whenever I am angry (we are prone to sharp verbal attacks), I have learnt to not speak much during any kind of tiff. But planets be damned. I anyway don’t speak much. Because I am an emotional shit during fights. So I cry my anger/frustration out. Crying lets out all the negative stuff out I might have said otherwise. But I do write stuff down in a cooler version of a fight. And when the self control switch is not working, sometimes emails get sent. There. Now what would have been a fleeting case of hurtful emotions bubbling, becomes a well etched memory. In someone’s mailbox. Hmm. Now I know why aai warns me. May be spoken words are better. Given the memory span of our brain and its ability to overwrite stuff, the moment is lost as time goes by. But I have not been able to do that. The moment of bitterness scares me. So might as well stick to writing. *Send* buttons be damned.
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| *from google The harbinger of peace |
And once all the email servers have been uploaded with negative energy, I start feeling really lame. I tell my close friends, brother, aai how stupid/bad I was. Aai and brother have a standard response – ‘close friends fight. Do say sorry. And try to grow up.’ Dad really thinks that it must have been the other person’s mistake. He loves me too much. And he believes in me too much. So that is there. Even though its great to have someone by your side who thinks you are invincible, after-battle-scenario doesn’t require that validation.
Friends more or less proclaim ‘Weirdo. Who fights over that! Give it time.’ Cool. More lameness burden over my tiny shoulders.
So venting it out in the open space remains the only smart and peaceful option. Because the universe as they say is expanding. It can take it. No?
Anywho, point is *death by over-analysis* of a situation/fight is possible.
Abort mission.
Peace out.
~nightflier
P.S. I am sure you guys have really grown up ways of fighting. Hmmpf.
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