• You start packing your stuff. You stumble across stuff you never knew existed. You label boxes. Make a note to use things that you still don’t want to throw away. You throw away some stuff willingly. With some stuff, you are just reluctant to let go. For eg. the beautiful glass bottles you collected to plant trees in. But never did anything with them for the past gazillion years, because well you never thought you would leave the house. 

       I am sure everyone goes through this cycle.

• You start loading your stuff in the movers’ truck. And the helper guy says ‘Madam kitna samaan hai’ (Madam, how much stuff you have!) and you lose it. I mean you spend an entire day packing those boxes neatly, by compartmentalizing and arranging stuff and labeling the boxes. So instead of rewarding your OCD with a compliment, the guy tells you that you have too much stuff! You start plotting revenge on the helper guy.

• You get the house you are moving into cleaned well before the actual move. That exercise gives you a brief lesson in how the new house is different from the place you have got used to calling your home for the past n years. That I think is the perk of living in rented houses. Each house offers something different and annoying. Which then becomes a matter of getting used to.

• Everything has now been shifted to the new place. You are now in that terrifying zone when you have to unpack just enough stuff so that its sufficient to get you by for the shifting night/day and enough so that if you want to arrange stuff, getting that out will not hurt the larger scheme of things like the final arrangement of unpacked stuff. 

• You take one last shower in the old house post all the shifting drama and hassles. The accumulated dust* in your lungs and on your body/clothes doesn’t want to let go. If you have allergies as I do, every sneeze takes you closer to that dreaded cold where your nose becomes waterworks incorporated. You realize while taking a shower that you are going to miss this home. This washroom. The tiles. The arrangement of soap cases. The tiny cohabitants like the spiders** in the remote nook of the wall, where it’s impossible to get a mop given your height constraints. (which is why you never really bothered to move the spider family out). You cry a little. Because water washes away water.

• You want to keep going to the house so a part of your packing OCD struck brain subconsciously lets you not pack everything in one go. You keep some trinkets. Important enough to not let go. But enough for another visit the next day. You clean the house for the next tenants. You want them to treat it the way you did.  The house is now empty during your next visit. You soak it in. That’s the emptiness inside your mind. You let it go.

• You still cannot sleep in the new house in spite of the same bed, mattress, bedsheets, pillows, lights, books. The mind still longs for comfort zone. You know its going to take some getting used to.

Do you also go through all this and more while packing and moving?* Dust is an integral part of your life if you live in India.** so are spiders inside your home!