Sometimes everything seems so hollow..
i guess that must be when despair wins and we give up….
sometimes i start feeling absolutely hopeless about almost everything….i feel like i am geting sucked inside this big,dark black hole….
if i knew ‘why’ i would be the perfect human being..aint i??
or is it may be i had stopped risking myself or my happiness, and now when i am trying to do so, to be purely more happy, i feel its all very stupid…
there s nothing like being more happy or something…ur just happy or ur not….
but some sane person had told me that i should strive for the HAPPIER Me…rather than settling on being just “HAPPY”!!
huh?????
dilemmas…..confusions….chaos…
my chemistry teacher used to tell us that wipe of the word CONFUSION from ur dictionary….now i know how costly its proving!
i thought the confusion ll drive me to lead to enlightening facts about myself,about life, about everything in general…..ya being confused helped…being in a dilemma always helped cos that way i could gauge so many aspects of…anything…
the picture was never pure black and white! i could see all the colors…not just the good or the bad….
And now when i want to see something pure black and white, it aint helping me…
bah………….
why are we born with such pieces of grey matter which produce intellectually stimulating thoughts….. :-/
Can someone tell me how to shut this thing off, please????
{dont tell me go and booze cos it does not ve any effect on me :D}
i guess that must be when despair wins and we give up….
sometimes i start feeling absolutely hopeless about almost everything….i feel like i am geting sucked inside this big,dark black hole….
if i knew ‘why’ i would be the perfect human being..aint i??
or is it may be i had stopped risking myself or my happiness, and now when i am trying to do so, to be purely more happy, i feel its all very stupid…
there s nothing like being more happy or something…ur just happy or ur not….
but some sane person had told me that i should strive for the HAPPIER Me…rather than settling on being just “HAPPY”!!
huh?????
dilemmas…..confusions….chaos…
my chemistry teacher used to tell us that wipe of the word CONFUSION from ur dictionary….now i know how costly its proving!
i thought the confusion ll drive me to lead to enlightening facts about myself,about life, about everything in general…..ya being confused helped…being in a dilemma always helped cos that way i could gauge so many aspects of…anything…
the picture was never pure black and white! i could see all the colors…not just the good or the bad….
And now when i want to see something pure black and white, it aint helping me…
bah………….
why are we born with such pieces of grey matter which produce intellectually stimulating thoughts….. :-/
Can someone tell me how to shut this thing off, please????
{dont tell me go and booze cos it does not ve any effect on me :D}
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