Exam Blues !!!!
Hush....
today gave my toefl i.e. test of english as foreign (i don think so though :P) language!
had not studied a bit (seriously :D) for it..i mean what do u expect, me to study for an exam which has a reading, listening, speaking, and writing (bah.....!!!) section ???
i can definitely read ... my junior KG teacher's must be real proud of me :-)
listen .... ahem ... well i am a good listener (that's wat my friends tell me, poor things dunno that half the time i am staring into thin air!!! :P)
Write ... well someone who's written 7 blogs till now can definitely write, right???
Speak ... hmmm... here lies the glitch...
Anyways point is not whether i could pass the exam (actually the scores come home after 3 weeks so can't say anything, but m sure i'll make all my teachers' proud !!), the point is that i went for the exam literally without any substantial preparation!
I had loads of material to go through, loads of practice softwares installed on my system...but i chose to go for the exam kinda unprepared...i just knew about the pattern and that's it...
I mean i even ignored the fact that it had cost me 150 USD (that too from my own pocket :D)
I just went like that .....
Another feather in my cap for taking risk at a place where twas not at all expected and required.. I aint proud of it people...
Have i become so cool that exams dont bother me much nowadays or is it just some attitude problem ??
I am proud of those school, even college days when i used to voraciously read all the available study material, prepare my own extensive notes, and go for the exam like i never cared for it! U know wat that was cooler! Cos i knew come wat may i am going to win.
(Except for M-II, an engineering subject, it had scared the hell outta me :|) I have hardly had exam blues...
But with changing times, my attitude changed and i started taking exams for granted! I still dont fear them, but i miss the apprehension u have, when u have worked really hard for something and are about to be rewarded for it! Well, getting good marks was never a concern, the real achievement lied in thoroughly understanding something and being actually able to apply it. The sheer satisfaction u get when u have given ur best to something is quite unmatchable!
I realized this thing when i was doing my company training in mysore.. the lost drive had somehow come back.. I used to study like i had never before.. learned some 8 or 9 subjects in a span of 4 months.. read lots of books .. and i really-really enjoyed it!
hmm...
As blingo says lagta hai Bournvita pina padega !!! :)